Lets Give Up

Do you ever have those days when it seems like everything is against you and the hope that you've been holding on to for months feels like it's slipping right out of your hands??? We've been on the "waiting list" to get on the waiting list for our adoption for 7 months now. With the weather warming up, and the girls at that busy age, we haven't had much time to sit around and think about alot of things but lately it just seems like every little roadblock is weighing us down a ton. Dale will be starting school again in two weeks and that is always a stressful time for us. He's gone for two months and we stay here, just us girls. The bills still need to be paid and the work still need to get done. I have my first appointment with the specialist this Monday, booo, the stress is just building up for that one. I have no idea what they're going to tell me. I'd like to talk to my family doctor about it, but he and his family are gone to South Africa on a family visit. So I guess I just have to suck it up and face the music.... good thing I'm taking MY mommy! Now with all these court ruling changes, we worry because we've read so many blogs where families have failed court one or two or THREE times. We can't afford three or four trips to Ethiopia, sometimes we feel like we're in over our heads and that we just need to take a step back to look at our situation............ hmm .....stepped back...thought a bunch.... Yup, right back to where we started, two little girls full of fun and caring, a husband that would do absolutely anything for his family and myself, a stubborn wife with a mission in her heart. It may take us some serious saving, some intense fundraising but the outcome of this decision will be the best that I could ever hope for or imagine. My hearts are with all the families waiting for the approval of court today.